My faith is being tested and I’m uncertain of where we stand. I was once confident in all we were. Yet part of me will always believe in you, I don’t give up on people. I don’t stop trying. I can’t just walk away even though maybe I should.
I want us to work out, which is why I’ve held on for so long.
But if I’m holding onto something that isn’t there anymore…maybe it’s never been there. Maybe it died a long time ago whatever was between us.
I need you to let me know and just be honest with me.
Because if I’m holding onto false hope….I probably won’t stop texting. I’ll probably continue trying and eventually, it’ll drive you crazy. I don’t mean to, but I want you and that isn’t fair to me.
I want to know if there’s a chance that we can move forward. I want to know if this is just a bump in the road or the end. I want to know if I’m reaching for something that isn’t there.
So tell me what to do because all I’ve ever wanted was to make you happy.
And I’m sorry if I sound desperate, but I just don’t know which way to move from here. It’s like I’m frozen.
Trust me, I can handle the pain. It’ll break me and hurt me, but sometimes it’s for the best.
But if you should know one thing, in case you ever leave me and regret it, I’ll embrace you with those same open arms that let you go.